Re: past

Allison just called me. She said she cried when she read my blog about the past. I told her not to feel sorry for me (which I assume she was), that I'm guilty of being mean to people too. You don't get treated like this without trying it on for size yourself. The one time I remember being mean to someone was to a dear friend. I felt so bad about it. Other people on the bus had been making fun of her and I participated. I was so stupid. I know it hurt her worse when I did it, cause she hauled of and slapped me for it. I think she taught me a lesson, I don't remember ever being mean to anyone again....not on purpose. Did I apologize? Can't recall. Surely. Maybe not. I will make sure she knows I'm sorry. And I told you that I've used guys like I'd been used, by 10th grade. Mostly to get over being dumped by someone I cared about. I reflect on growing up and think of it a painful. I used my 20 year reunion as therapy. A face your fears sort of thing. I don't think anyone should ever pull the in-your-face crap. How's that going to make you feel better? Hell, would anyone even know that's what your were doing? Ineffective. Love and forgive and hope everyone does the same.